I realise it's not really easy to be 自恋 when nobody really gives you a chance. They ignore you, give you the superior attitude, and does everything in their ability to deny your presence. You feel hurt, you just am not able to stand up again. 自恋. Am I really like that? I hope I am. I wanna be proud of myself. Give me a chance. I wish I could say "You're gonna regret doing this to me. 'Cos I'm gonna be better at you in everything, and then you're gonna come beg me for help." But I can't. You've wiped off every single thing I felt for myself. 为什么你不肯留一点自尊给我呢？就那么一点。Is it that hard? Care for my feelings won't you? Just 'cos you're smartest doesn't mean you really do know everything. You know what I'm thinking? YOU DON'T KNOW ME! And you say you're my friend... Do you REALLY take me as a friend? I'm not someone you can throw around like a ball. We used to be close. Or so I thought, for two weeks. Then something happened, and when I look for you, you're not there for me anymore. You've hurt me. Don't apologise. It won't help. This is deeper than ever before. But I still hope that you apologise. Maybe then you still find me important to your heart. Everyone likes you. But who do you like? Are you being true to your heart? I tell myself that the person you really feel comfortable around with is me, not the other. I love all your friends, except that one. I really don't expect you to break ties with her. deepdownactuallyido. But now, I feel sad. Maybe all along, in your heart, there wasn't a place for me. I won't bother you anymore. I'll try. Really. You won't be irritated by me again...

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