Somebody asked me what were the addresses of my previous blogs so here it is:

1)http://why-do-you-love-me.blogspot.com/
2)http://www.loveforall-and-allforlove.blogspot.com/

There's no point going there anymore... I didn't delete the blogs because I want to keep them as memories. But seriously, I'm beginning to doubt if I was myself then...

Rosette
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Rosette
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Nonchalant people depress me...

Their couldn't-care-less attitude never fails to make me feel 渺小... But the people I love are all so... They just don't care more than a random passer-by... They start to get closer to you. But even so, they are still so 冷漠 towards you. You really wish the 界线 between you two can disappear, you can hug her and just cry... I really wanna cry. I'm not the person you all think of me as. I want a 怀抱 to cry in...

I start looking for my other friends... But why must you hurt me NOW?

I see that you all don't really care about me... I always thought that you all really cared about me.

The best part of 'believe' is the 'lie'...

Now I understand what it means...

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 9:05 AM

I lost because I trusted
I trusted because I believed
In all those Lies you told me...
I loved, and you
Deceived.

You should seriously apologise

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 8:51 PM

godmademanmanmademathmathmademanmad

seriously,i'mdyingfromalzeblaaandindices.

And I so think I'm failing my SBQ. I didn't really do much... Like, just points with a little elaboration... I'm such a failure!!! I think my 作文偏题already...

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 6:50 PM

陈淑华
梦醒时分

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生
早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

Rosette
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I know this is the fifth post of today. But I just wanna ask:

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 8:37 PM

Chamomile.
It is said to relieve one's senses and let the person relax.
I drank two pots by my own just now. I didn't fall asleep, even though it was raining and I was in bed, hugging my teddy bear. I really wished I could just fall asleep and then never wake up. I HATE STRESS!
Problems.
Friendship problems, Career problems, Relationship problems, Financial problems.
I don't think I needa explain about the Friendship and Relationship part. And don't think too deep. Relationship simply means 人际关系. Right.
The Career part refers to my studies. Grades... I don't think I can get my 4.2 GPA. I wasted lots of time. 1 month, even more. I'm wasting myself away. I wish I never chose to get into Dunman High, with it being an IP school and all the people in it... You get the drift.
Financially, I'm in need of help. To put it simply, I'm broke. Like, not literally, I still get my allowance and that all, just that I haven't been able to control my spending. Splurging on things that I may never need. Well, not really. I've been binging. I think it relieves stress.

Wouldn't it be nice if I could just drink a pot of chamomile or Lavender and just sleep and forget about problems? Normal sleeping at night isn't peaceful at all. Dreams... That will never come true. Falling asleep after relief of stress sounds so cool. I wanna experience it someday.
No, you don't really have to bother about me. I'm bleeding inside, yes. But Imma be strong.

I'll survive.

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 8:21 PM

More Quotes that express how I feel. Do you understand now?

-Not all scars show,
Not all scars heal.
Sometimes you can’t always see
The pain someone feels
-Tired of trying
Sick of crying
Yeah I’m smiling
But inside I’m dying
-Feelings I used to have aren’t there
And for the first time in so long
I really just don’t care
-I lock away the pain
Put away the fears
Show you only smiles
Not the hidden tears
-I said I don’t need you
But I’m a liar I swear I do
-I love to walk in the rain
‘Cos no one can see me cry

Credit: http://www.cherrybam.com/emo-quotes.php

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 4:00 PM

I realise it's not really easy to be 自恋 when nobody really gives you a chance. They ignore you, give you the superior attitude, and does everything in their ability to deny your presence. You feel hurt, you just am not able to stand up again. 自恋. Am I really like that? I hope I am. I wanna be proud of myself. Give me a chance. I wish I could say "You're gonna regret doing this to me. 'Cos I'm gonna be better at you in everything, and then you're gonna come beg me for help." But I can't. You've wiped off every single thing I felt for myself. 为什么你不肯留一点自尊给我呢？就那么一点。Is it that hard? Care for my feelings won't you? Just 'cos you're smartest doesn't mean you really do know everything. You know what I'm thinking? YOU DON'T KNOW ME! And you say you're my friend... Do you REALLY take me as a friend? I'm not someone you can throw around like a ball. We used to be close. Or so I thought, for two weeks. Then something happened, and when I look for you, you're not there for me anymore. You've hurt me. Don't apologise. It won't help. This is deeper than ever before. But I still hope that you apologise. Maybe then you still find me important to your heart. Everyone likes you. But who do you like? Are you being true to your heart? I tell myself that the person you really feel comfortable around with is me, not the other. I love all your friends, except that one. I really don't expect you to break ties with her. deepdownactuallyido. But now, I feel sad. Maybe all along, in your heart, there wasn't a place for me. I won't bother you anymore. I'll try. Really. You won't be irritated by me again...

Rosette
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Time for common tests.
Geog next Tuesday;
Hist next Friday;
Hcl next next week;
Maths next next next week;
NOT TO MENTION THE POETRY DEVICES TEST NEXT WEEK!

I'm stressed. And there's no one to confide in. Can I trust you?

I feel like crying, but someone told me not to. She said she'd feel upset if I did. Will she know? NO! If my so-called-sis didn't tell her, she wouldn't know. Maybe I just can't leave that impression on you. I love you though. I can't help it. I wanna hate you. I just can't bring myself to. Can you get out of my life?

I dunno how I'm gonna be able to concentrate on my mugging. Life is a tough journey indeed. Right. Back to mugging Geog. Upon 15 marks. I wonder if I'll pass.

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 9:58 AM

Like, they're all emo ones but yeah, they summarise my feelings.
Some are quotes, the others quotes-to-be. Said by me. Iloveyouok?

-"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends." :Martin Luther King Jr.
-"Mother my friends are no longer my friends
And the games we once played have no meaning
I've gone serious and shy and they can't figure why
So they've left me to my own daydreaming.":Suzanne Vega
-"And the days went by like paper in the wind. Everything changed, then changed again. It's hard to find a friend. It's hard to find a friend.":Tom Petty
-"Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me"
-"Friendship is like a violin; the music may stop now and then, but the strings will last forever."
-If someone you love hurts you, cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.
That’s what I told myself.
-Cry. Tell yourself it’s the last time. Because you’re gonna get over it. No one in this world is ever going to make you cry again. You’ve had enough, they’re not worth it anymore…
-Stop crying. There are going to be tear-marks left behind. Then they’ll know you’ve been hurt. But they will never know why. Ignorant people they are. Don’t let them hurt you.
-Learn to protect myself. Got it.
-You hurt me so deeply, I almost never got over it. But NOW…
-I LOVE YOU! Why can’t you love me back?
-Once you promised to love me forever. Now I know forever can end sometime… I am hurt.
-Confidence in you?! You wish. Get out of my life.
-I HATE YOU! Go AWAY!
-Angst. Anyone wanna teach me how to write?
-I’M SO PISSED OFF!
-I wanna cry, but my tears are too sacred. NOT TO BE WASTED OVER YOU!!!

Rosette
It started drizzling @ 9:00 PM